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10/9/2008Insomnia sucks. Especially when you've just finished 3 hours of work and can't shut off your brain. I suppose I could try and lay down but that would just be boring since I know I wouldn't fall asleep right away.
Anyway, I wanted to jot down my random thoughts at 1am in the morning. First, I'm back in the gym now and it feels great. I'd been off the bandwagon for far too long. I was sinking into a funk and my theory is the lack of exercise. Though anyone reading this who's read my previous posts knows that my slumps are cyclical but I don't think this was one of those cases. It could of been. Who the heck knows? Certainly not me and it's my body so I wouldn't assume any of you know. Except for Mark. He knows me better than I do but I digress. The purpose of this post was for me to try and jot down some thoughts and possibly tire my brain out but unfortunately the more I write the more elaborate this post seems to be getting.
On a different note school is in full swing and I want someone to take a full swing at my head with a baseball bat. I'm not entirely sure what I was thinking when I took a full schedule. Anyway, I've been inundated with tests, projects, homework and I'm running out of hours in the day. But alas, I'm not dropping anything because I've put this off far too long. What does that mean? It means that I'll have to continue ranting at 1am in the morning so I can put myself to sleep. If anything it gives Mark something to read in the morning.... 9/21/2008So... Where am I? Not entirely sure. Suffice it to say I'm sort of in a limbo at the moment. What do I want? What do I need? What I want is what every other red blooded american wants. A good life for him and his family. So what does one need to do in order to obtain that good life? Hard work and dedication. Sure there are probably other things than that but for now I'll concentrate on that. I mean, I don't really have someone to devote my time to other than my kids so the only thing left is work and school.
What do I need? I need someone to lean on. Now I'm a basket case nor do I need constant support but there are times where it would be nice to vent to someone instead of sitting in my room and staring at the walls. Thankfully work and school has taken up most of my time so I haven't had to spend too much time stewing in my room...
So since school has started my gym attendance has been horrid. It hasn't been easy to get there with my school schedule. So I think it's time to make a drastic change to get back on track for Mark's 300 challenge. So starting tomorrow I'm going to wake up at 4 in the morning and head to the gym before work. I'm going to try it for a week and see how it goes. I think I can do it. All it's going to take is discipline... 8/12/2008That's right! I'm so hawt I created a special blog for my workout regime. It's a work in progress but I've got a few posts up. Eventually I'll show my current weight for each routine and my cardio statistics but for now it's just a log of my current progress. Feel free to check it out by clicking on the workout link at the top of the page. Have fun enjoying my hawtness! 7/22/2008There are a few event in my life I would consider epic. The birth of my kids, placing 3rd in Greco Roman Wrestling at nationals in 1999, seeing Pearl Harbor... I now have another event to add to that list. This past weekend I participated in what can only be decribed as the most amazing outdoor activity I've ever done. I went to Zion's Canyon to go canyoneering. My guides on this epic adventure were 3 of the most down to earth guys I've ever met, better known in their inner circle as The Canyon Boys. Suffice it to say their name is right on the Mark! (Ahh thank you) But I digress...
First let me set the stage for this weekend. It actually started with an early morning jaunt to the movie plex to watch The Dark Knight. After a few hours of sleep I went to work a complete zombie. After muddling through the day I left to finish packing and await Mark's arrival. He picked me up and we set off on our journey. For the next 6 hours Mark and I rocked out with our... ipod out? Anyway, given the fact that the both of us were working on little sleep it was evident that the both of us were rather loopy. As we passed Vegas I realized that I didn't think I was going to make it. Unfortunately Liz made me promise to watch him so I stayed awake and on we went. Mark on the other hand was as solid as a rock so my job was fairly easy. We finally made it to our destination and I promptly passed out.
We woke up a few hours later and embarked on the second leg of our journey. We dropped off Mike's car and took the trusty ol' Kia to the top. After strapping in, packing the water and food, we set off for the ridge.
That's where this installment will end. Once I have all the pictures I'll post another blog so stay tuned readers. See you next time, same bat time, same bat channel... 7/18/2008I've seen a lot of movies. I've seen good ones and I've seen some great ones. Early this morning I sat down for what I hoped would be a another great one. I mean, how could it not be? Well, now that I've seen it I can say the movie delivered and then some. Call it fanboy nostalgia, call it lack of sleep but I'm still in awe of what I witnessed. The movie was 2 and a half hours of pure adrenaline. Pure awesomeness! It's been a long time since a movie this hyped has exceeded my expectations. And that includes Star Wars and for those of you who know me know how significant a statement that is. Anyway, go see it. Go... Now.. Why are you still here? Why on earth are you reading this when you could be on your way to the theater...? 7/5/2008It pours! July 3rd 2008 is a day that will be long remembered. It has seen the end of Mark, it will soon see the end of the Rebellion. Well, not exactly. Mark did quit but the Rebellion will live on. But I digress. As if Mark leaving wasn't enough, I sit down to what would have most certainly been a good time was brought to an abrupt halt by some flashing lights. 3 red ones to be exact. After much research and even more frustration, I decided to submit and open a repair claim. Thank goodness it's still under warranty..... 6/30/2008
Sometimes in life you have to decide what matters most. What can you live with and what can you live without? We all have things in our life that we can let go of. Whether it be a game, or certain foods, or any materialistic thing. But what do you do when something you're asked to live without is neither materialistic nor physical. What if it was a feeling or lack thereof. What if for part of you to be happy another part would have to suffer? Could you do it? Could you sacrifice one part of you for another? Now I'm not talking limbs or anything like that. I'm talking about the struggle between your brain and your heart. Could one win over the other? Is there ever a time where both are in harmony? I can recall a few times where I felt that way but they're few and far between. I don't know what the answer is but I have a feeling I'll figure it out within the next few months.. 6/12/2008
So I started a new schedule this week. 530-230. Now at a glance one would say, "Hey, that's awesome!" But what they don't realize is that in order to get here by 530 in the morning you have to wake up much earlier than that. Somewhere around 410. Whew. Pretty drastic for a suffering insomniac who recently gave up drinking. But I digress. I like the new schedule mainly because I can pick up the kids from school if I need, get to practice sooner, work out earlier (yeah, I'm working out again), or just get off and go home to relax. The only problem is it's a little rough around noon. My brain starts to shut down. If it wasn't for my ipod I'd be done. But again, getting off early has far too many benefits for me to worry about sleep. I mean, who needs sleep. It's overrated isn't it?
5/15/2008
Sometimes you have to come to a realization that no matter what you do, some things can't be controlled. Some things are simply out of your hands. As much as I like to think I'm in control of my destiny I know I'm not. The only thing I'm in control of are my feelings but sometimes I think I don't even control those. In a way I can't control them. I can't turn love off. I can't make myself move on any more than I can move a mountain. So what does this mean? It means I will stop trying to move the mountain. I will accept that it's there and if I find a way around it then so be it. If not, I'll find a new path but I'll always look back. I'll always be waiting for that mountain to budge and if it does, I'll be there to push it over the edge. 3/1/2008
Well I'm back but with a twist. I'm still the same ol Shaun but with a new direction. Currently I'm siting in my room with my boys playing some games. It's funny how cyclical life can be. I remember years ago my father used to play with my brother and I. We'd pull out the GI Joes or my model toys and play for hours. Now we never had computers or X Boxes but the idea is still the same. Father and son bonding. I'll explore this more later but for now, it's time to whoop my sons asses! |
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